Monday, November 24, 2008

Happy Un-birthday to me!

Six months ago I turned 29. Six more months until I hit the big 3-0. The dirty thirty. I had a bit of a crisis on my last birthday, realizing that I may already be past my expiration date. Divorced (all but the ink was dry on the dissolution decree), single mom, 30 pounds over weight, recovering from my 4th knee surgery, degenerative joint disease. These are supposed to be the best years of my life? Fer crying out loud!

I made a goal. To be in the best shape of my life by May 24, 2009. So how's it coming along? Yeah.... how is that coming along? *snickers* This sticker sums it up.

I've lost weight, I've gained it back. I've been so good for a few months, keeping track of every morsel that crosses my lips. Working out. Then slaaaaaaaaaacking. Oh yeah, I love to be lazy. Sit in my corner reading chair and zone out for days at a time. If I could only eradicate my sweet tooth, I could make some progress. Sweet tooth, and my lazy bones. But if I did that, I'd be low on calcium, right?

A favorite quote of mine by A.Lee Martinez from his novel A Nameless Witch.

"It's easy to defeat life-or-death ordeals. Such tribulations demand success. It's the small tests that require something more from us. When we can turn and walk away is when we find what we're made of."

When I read that, I had to immediately read and re-read it again. What an amazing truth. So I will keep this in mind, and in six months I'll give you the update. Keep your fings crossed for me, so that I will find what I'm made of with the small steps.


  1. Hey, at least you made a goal. I'm too lazy to even do that...

  2. Hahaha I'm with Andy, making goals is the first step to achieving them.

    Sounds like you've had a bad run lately. If it helps any, I am jealous that you're a mommy!

    And that quote is spot-on. I'm good at being strong when I have no other choice, but I'm no good with small temptations. I'm secretly (by which I mean Husband doesn't know) addicted to Coca-cola - that stuff is harder for me to kick than crack.

  3. I have been trying to kick my soda habit for a year now. My sweet man is one of those organic hippie guys who gives me shit about drinking it so I sneak it. I no longer judge people who can't quit smoking or whatnot. It's rough being an addict!

  4. You are right...I think we may be long lost sisters. I'll be stalking your blog now and I hope you will come back to visit mine again.

    Hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

  5. Geiger - my Husband is a bit of a hippie too! Not as health conscious as yours though...

    I was supposed to give up Coke when he gave up smoking and, well... I did for ages, but fell off the wagon some time ago & now I can't bring myself to tell him.

    I'll keep your secret if you keep mine ; )

    PS - I follow/blogroll you now
    : )